- It might be a NDA type deal where gabbling about details for the project are strictly taboo and would jeopardize the client's trust and or potential future jobs with said client.
- I don't want to get unecessarily hyped up for really cool job that may not happen.
- If the job falls through/my secondary submission did not make the cut, I want to edit that submission and possibly use it in a future project if the client allows me to do so.
- I like to hedge my bets, so I've been trying to work ahead, at least in the research department, so that should I get selected for the job I will have a short turn around time for the "boss" of the project. I'd rather be ready to go and firing on all pistons than trying to hit the ground running, but from behind....does that metaphor make sense?
So this leads me to a little life lesson that hopefully is chock full of condescension, pretension, elevation, and any other "-tions or sions" I may have missed. Kidding aside, I want to make it clear that there's never a reason to give up hope on what can be done with a project. Does the client cancel? No biggie, just use what you've learned, and maybe even the work as well and turn it into a funny story or resume' enhancer. Or maybe re-purpose it for later use. As I slowly reclaim myself from the abyss that was my old retail job I am remembering the optimism I used to have over situations even when they seemed bad or turned out other than I had hoped.
I don't care if it sounds schmaltzy to say, but I will remain hopeful even when it seems the foolish and silly thing to do. Heck, even if I don't get this particular job, that doesn't mean I can't try again later to try and get a job with this guy, and it doesn't mean that I've lost the chance to work on anything ever again and for all time. I think while I was working that crummy job in the past, it tended to blindside me with such horrible things and poor treatment from management on a daily basis that I saw every failure as total closure of possible routes and futures. It was a terrible thing to happen because in addition to the pervasive awfulness of the job, I tended to think one failure was all it took to either be at square one, or think that I should never try certain things ever again.
Different outlook now? Yes and no. As I said, I used to have a more upbeat, "keep-on-a-tryin'" attitude prior to the retail job going full evil mode. I hope that if you read this and are in an awful job, have people in your life that scoff at being hopeful, or feel like every one else is living it up while your stuck in the doldrums--please try to get away from those bad influences and start anew. I know it doesn't seem possible if you feel stuck in an awful job, but trust some one who knows from experience. Such places can keep you from realizing your full potential. If you're scared of what might happen if you leave, try even harder to get away from there.
It's easier to deal with fear of the unknown that it is to deal with a lifetime of regret.
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